One night, a few days after being in Arequipa, I was talking with some chicos in the park right outside my house. I asked one of them what he recommended that I do in Arequipa. His immediate reply was "enamorarte" or "fall in love."
I laughed. Definitely not part of the plan, I thought to myself. After all, who wants to fall in love with someone they'll be leaving in 4 months?
But without trying I followed his advice. Slowly but surely I have fallen in love - not with a man, but with a people, a culture, a country. They've captured my heart - my friends, my family, just Peru.
I went to a discoteca tonight. Amidst the dancing, laughing, smiling, i gave my friend Emily a quick hug (which happens alot..:) ), but as i let her go, i caught her eyes and realized they were full of tears. We gripped each other again, and as I stood there, feeling her body shake, I asked myself, "How am I leaving this? How."
It's in moments like these that it starts to hit me. Because to be honest...I've kind of been living never really believing it would happen. Sure, in my head I know..but I don't think it's in me yet -the truth that I'll be leaving this world.
I've been feeling pretty much every emotion there is to feel lately. I didn't want to write this post earlier really cuz I didn't really know how I felt. This past week, I felt alot more ready to be coming home than I thought I would be. I miss my family like crazy, especially with Christmas time, and I can't wait to tell all of my friends about everything.
But at the same time, I don't want to say goodbye.
I don't really know what to say honestly.
I guess it's because I don't really know what I'm feeling. Mixed up.
Nervous, Excited, Sad.
But I know one thing that I am -- thankful. So thankful. I didn't do anything to deserve this amazing experience this semester, but it has been truly incredible. I'm blown away by the love and friendships that people have shown me here, and the ways that God has abundantly blessed my time.
Wow. All glory to Him, because it is His world, and His creation. He's give us the ability to Love and form relationships, to enjoy the beauty of his creation, the creativity found within different cultures and peoples
I guess I was right at the beginning of the semester -- falling in love would be hard, because I'd have to leave.
But I've learned this semester that it's worth it. It's worth it to let yourself love and give of yourself, even though it's gonna hurt. It's what makes life rich and beautiful.
I can't wait to share with you. I know it will be impossible to share it all... to show you what this world is like..but please don't let that stop you from asking.